_A+Day+In+The+Life+Of+Mike_

Tue, 15 Jul 2008 16:37:32 GMT

i dont know how fulfilling nusical theatre is to me right now. i hope its just cause im working for a shitty theatre doing subpar shows that i am getting sick of it but all i can say right now is that getting paid 225 a week to do this is not worth it atall. id rather be working at ciao baby. i am putting in like 90 hours a week!!! thats insane to put in that much work and get paid nearly nothing for it. itd be better if after rehearsals we just had to go to shows 8 times a weeka and had the rest of the time off but no, instead we have 10 shows a week which means we only get monday off but thats absolutely nothing considering that we have musc man rehearsal all day anyway. some day off. the worst part of it was that before music man rehearsals startes we still were rehearsing for country roads on our days off and mornings off. the show had alreadt been up for 3 weeks and we performed 30 times but t the need to kebut chabges f caus emike still didnt think the show was good. no ike tnt

third coast

Sat, 12 Jul 2008 08:25:44 GMT

tonight was so much fun. went to the gay bar with sam Erin wade ari and jeremy. i didnt drink and it was so much better that yay. the manager knows me now so if lets me im but i have to sneak drinks if i wanna drink. sean was hitting on me hardcore it was really annoying cause i dont like him. he is missing teeth and his breath reeks of cigarettes its disguisting. i had fun playing pool and actually played really well and then i had alot of fun dancing too. my friends started a dance party' the rest of the bar joined in and everyone was out there dancing' the best was dancing with the lesbians! they loved me it was really funny. ok i have rehearsal at 9am and im exhausted and i think kevins getting mad at my texting noises on my phone. i hate having a roomate again

summerstock

Thu, 10 Jul 2008 21:32:51 GMT

ive been at galveston now for a month and a half. it feels like an eternity probably because we are so busy all the time and have work like 70 hours a week sometimes more. i made some good friends here but who i hang out with changes as the weeks go on. by the way, since high school my english has gone to shitd its really bad. but

month 3

Mon, 05 Mar 2007 05:42:50 GMT

Im in my 3rd month of the tane now. My dose had been doubled to 60mg a day. My face is SOOOOOOO much better. I couldnt be happier about it. This is seriously a miracle drug, I would recommend it to anyone. It has boosted my confidence x 5 and has made me a happier person. Ill update with some pictures real soon.

3 more months to go! Im excited!

Week 4.5

Thu, 18 Jan 2007 05:08:25 GMT

So that whole throat hurting thing I mentioned in Week 2... yea, well I think it something to do with me being sick because about 5 days after that I got bronchitis and Im still sick until this day (Im back in Miami now). This will be brief... my face got better and better after the lsat entry and then all of a sudden it got worse about a week ago. i think this is just one of the exxpected initial breakouts. oh and my dermatologist schduled me an appointment for a day when she wasnt there so now i havent had pills since monday, my new appt is for friday (today is wednesday). I actually had about 4 extra pills from a couple times when i missed taking my meds over the month, so im spreading them out over the 5 days i dont have anything just to keep some Tane in my system. Also, Friday Ill have my bloodwork looked at. Ill update hopefully at week 5. who knows. i dont like updating lol.

Week 2

Sun, 31 Dec 2006 00:47:16 GMT

Two weeks into taking Accutane and I already notice a big difference! Other peopl might not notice it as much, but I know myself well. My skin has not cleared to this point since longer than i can remember. I mean, its still not good, but at least im making progress. My face is a little more dried out and my I have to put Aquaphor on my lips ALL THE TIME because if i ever let them get dry its not a pretty scene. Sounds lovely, I know. The newest development are the nose bleeds. Ive been getting them alot. Ive probably had about 7 in the past 3 days. Im not so sure if its the best thing that im getting so many so soon. And Im only on 30mg a day right now. Whats gonna happen in month 5 when im on 80mg a day? My throat also hurts. It feels like a black and blue when I swallow. I think its from the medicine making me dehydrated. When I drink alot of water and after meals and stuff I dont notice my throat hurting. But in the morning its a bitch. So thats it for now. Ive been taking pictures and eventualyl Ill put them up for anyway that wants to see some cool Before and After extreme-makeover-like magic! haha

Week 1

Fri, 22 Dec 2006 19:34:47 GMT

So its been 1 week since I started the 'Tane (Dec.16th). This is probably just pure coincidence but the right side of my face cleared up a little bit. I dont see how the medicine could have worked that quickly.. but anyway... in the first week not too much has changed. My face has just dried out and become really sensitive. From walking around the city 3 days in a row (in 30 degree weather. Mind you, this is not summer) my face BURNT. I couldnt figure out why my face was hurting so much when I washed it and put on moisutrizer but a day later the redness showed up. The burn doesnt always look like a burn until a little while after sun exposure. So Ive realized that I need MORE than my 15SPF moisutrizer. Im using 55SPF noncomodogenic sunblock on top of the 15SPF moisutrizer. I think that should help...especially in Miami. I tmkaes my face a little greasy...but whatever. My lips are starting to get real dry too. I use chap stick all the time. I forgot to put it on at work yesterday... I sneezed... and I split my lip open lol. AH. SO now I carry around Aquaphor or some kind of chapstick with me everywhere. I think my biggest annoyance right now is that I cant get the damn pills out of the child resistant package!!! It takes like 5 minutes of my trying to get it out until I get pisssed off and just cut it out with scissors. Small priece to pay though haha

Besides Accutane though, Im having a great Christmas break so far. I want to go back to Miami for the warm weather, but thats the only reason why. Id rather stay in NY. Its an amazing place compared to anywhere else Ive ever been. I think Im definitely goign to end up living here the rest of my life.

Until next week....

ACCUTANE

Wed, 06 Dec 2006 04:45:13 GMT

Ever since junior year in HS my acne has gotten progressively worse. I had pretty nice skin pre-16, but now my skin is just a hot mess. The first time I ever went to a dermatologist was at the beginning of my senior year. I was prescribed Duac Topical Gel and used it for a few months but it didnt really help that much at all. My acne came and went like it did before. I went back to the dermatologist and he prescribed me Clindamycin lotion to put on my face 2 to 3 times a day. This did little to nothing. So I went back to the dermatologist at the end of my senior year and was prescribed Tretin-X (tretinoin). I was to use this at night as well as Plexion Cleansing Cloths (sulfur) in the mornings and continue to apply Clindamycin twice a day. My face got worse. Then I got mono and had to take steroids for my insanely swollen throat (I needed to sing! I was playing Doody at Hofstra at the time). The steroids made me face EXPLODE. I had never had or seen such bad acne in my life. I had like cysts on my face or something. I continued to use the 4 different medications though. After stopping the steroids my acne calmed down little by little in the remaining month of the summer. It never returned to how it looke pre-Steroids though. Finally, I had to go off to college. I stopped by my dermatologist before leaving and he said that he wanted me to continue using everything I was on for another month or so just to see if my face was still reacting from the steroids, and if it didnt get better, he would consider putting me on Accutane. My face got worse at Miami. It was at the point where I didnt go to class sometimes or didnt go out on weekends cause I just couldnt deal with people having to look at me (even though, people generally are nice about it and dont say anything). I was DYING to go back home for Thanksgiving to see my dermatologist because I was sure that just by looking at me once he'd be convinced that it was time for Accutane. I trudged through the next couple months trying EVERYTHING to keep by face from getting too much worse. My self esteem really plummeted though. All I couldnt think about when I went out was my face and how gross it probably was. I couldnt look anyone straight in the face. When I talked to people one on one I got really uncomfortable because I couldnt help but be extremely self-concious about my face. I think its effected my relationships too. I was never confident enough to make the first move, ask people to hang out more often, or to even continue talkign to people because I was so selfconcious and felt so disguisting that I didnt feel worthy enough. I felt like they could do better. so why me? This inhibited me alot and caused me to act differently. I wasnt this way before the ACCCNNEEE. it just totally changed the way I act and my level of self-esteem and self-confidence.

So I went home for Thanksgiving, went to my dermatologist and he said that I could go on Accutane. The only thing was... I basically live in Miami now, and I would need to go for a checkup and bloodtest every month. So, he said I have to see a dermatologist in Miami first so that this doctor could team up with him to take care of me. I had an appointment with a dermatologist in Miami anyway, it was scheduled for TODAYYY. So I came back to school 6 days ago and finally went to the dermatoligst this morning. I told her that my doctor recommended I go on Accutane (apparently my doctor in NY is relatively famous/wellknown?? I told them what his name was and they were like "OHHHH!! Joel Spitz!! Is he actually THE Joel Spitz from NY??) Knowing that THE ONE AND ONLY Joel Spitz recommended I go on Accutane was enough for them so almost immediately agree to put me on Accutane as well.

So the process started. They wrote me out prescriptions for blood tests. Then they went through the "iPledge" program with me where they explained al lthe side effects and gave me a binder to read through and then I had to sign liablility papers and all that good stuff. The DOC said she would start me right away BUT if I ever missed an appointment she owuld stop prescribing me the medication. She trusts me because I am a University of Miami student. She wrote me out the prescription. (i mean, hey, Im not complaining, but I think she shoud have taken it a little more seriously. Hopefully she does with her other patients.) So I went with Graham to get blood taken.

The results should be in by Friday. I will get a call from my DOC confirming (hopefully) that everything is ok. If thats the case, I will complete the iPledge program online and then go get my prescription filled. I wont start it until I actually go back home on Dec.14th because before I get the next thirty day prescription I have to see my dermatologist again and my next appointment in Miami is Jan 15th. Ill only be a day off. Oh well.

So Im finally going on this stuff.... the main thing im worried about is the depression/mood swings/irrational behavior. I have such a passion for musical theatre right now and I am so driven. I set up my auditions for the musical theatre conservatories at CCM and Miami in the past week. I dont want this medication to artifically alter the way I feel about theatre so that I decide not to do it, but when I go off the meds after 6 months I realize the mistake that I made because I was being irrational.

So please watch me guys!!

Im going to keep a journal throughout the time I am on Accutane. I was told by my Derm. that it was a good idea. If anyone notices me acting differently or getting dperessed or starting to change my life plans please TELLL MMEEE!!! I may not want to believe that it is the medicine but it most likely is. I am GOING to be a performer and some medicine that im taking for 5 or 6 months is not gonna change my life because of a little depression. This is how I see it... I am already depressed without the Accutnae because of my Acne. Its worth going throug a little bit more depression that may be a little worse so that ultimately my face is AMAZING and I can have the most confidence that Ive ever had in my entire life and have a renewed passion for everything. Lets hope thats the case.

Ill update the day or day after I actually take the first pill.

: D

Sun, 15 Oct 2006 17:09:08 GMT

last night was THE most INSANE night of college so far. ::sigh:: it was lovely

a change in plans

Thu, 12 Oct 2006 01:01:09 GMT

im totally abandoning biology and moving forward full throttle into musical theatre. im auditioning in january to be in miamis musical theatre conservatory as a BM Musical Theatre major. We'll see what happens

eh

Tue, 10 Oct 2006 04:50:13 GMT

Sometimes I wish everything was perfect.

.....I wish that emptiness didnt exist.

.....I wish that everything felt pleasant.

Sometimes I wish someone could just hold me and tell me everything will be okay.

Sometimes I wish that wishing wasnt necessary.

But I wish too hard.

And I find that I'm wishing myself to sleep, only to wake up wishing I had never wished at all.

Fri, 08 Sep 2006 12:58:22 GMT

ive had this sudden urge to be a good person. i mean, its not like people TRY to be mean, but most definitely dont make an effort to be nice.

Why and by whom was I inspired? My friends at UM who seem so superficial. And who occasionally act like pretentious assholes that think theyre better than other people.

At first I thought: "Okay, I know I wont act like these people, and I think I can cope with being friends with them."

But at this point I realize that they are actually bringing me down a bit, and Ive noticed myself becoming more judgmental and critical of others every day. Luckily Ive notice though, and im going to make a noticeable effort to change. AND to try and change my friends. Or at least make them realize how rediculous they are being.

Stop pointing out fat, ugly, and untalented people.
Stop watching these rediculous shows on MTV that shed positivr light on spolied 16 year old girls and movies stars with lavish homes, and dating shows that do WONDERS with peoples self esteem.

All of kind of makes me a little sick. So all Im saying is that i will TRY to be a better person. Obviously I cant guarantee 100% success. But ill try. thats all.

k im done.

Peace out LI.

The University of Miami

Wed, 06 Sep 2006 12:35:27 GMT

I love this school.

it makes me happy.

: )

(....i think my mono is coming back. oy.)

1st Semester Shows

Mon, 28 Aug 2006 12:48:20 GMT

I was cast in a mainstage show!

Out of all 3 mainstage shows I couldnt have been cast in (2 being a musical), I was cast in the drama... A Midsummer Nights Dream.

Yes folks, thats right, Shakespeare.

Before I came to the University of Miami I couldnt act. But apparently, now I can. HAHA.

Anyway... so I am Flute. Not such a bad part considering I'm a freshman. I wish I couldnt have at least been in a musical but a small number of people were cast in each show and all of them are upperclassmen.

Ive never been in a shakespearian play before... I never even read the plays that we "studied" in AP English. At my audition I was on NoFear SHakespeare on my laptop trying ot translate all the lines I had to read. It was quite comical.

This will def. be an interesting experience that I will learn alot from. Come see the show!! haha. its only 1200 miles away!

First Freshman Friday

Fri, 25 Aug 2006 12:52:04 GMT

Im sitting in CHEM class right now. Im so happy that theres a wireless signal in the classroom! i dont know why im taking this class, i know all of the material already from highschool. oh well, itll be an easy A... hopefully. none of these credits will transfer anyway if i transfer to the music school.

So last night were my callbacks. they took FOREVER. Well, first of all, I barely even made it on time. I went with Andrew and Krystyna to target and Office Depot around 330 and planned on only being out for about an hour and a half but we ended up being at target until 530 and then Andrew still needed to go to Office Depot to get school supplies. So we didnt get back to UM until 6:10. my auditions were at 7. I still had to eat so we went to the dining hall. I got back up into my room at 7:30 but then I had to find my class schedule and call Krystyna with the room number for my philosophy class. I had class at 630 but couldnt go because of my audition so she went to sit in for me. I paid her $15. After I called her with the room number I realized that I had to run back over to Hecht to get the "sides" i nthe theatre department. When i got there though there was a sign saying that the audition would be cold. so... i RAN back up to my dorm... its was 7:45... I THREW my clothed off, ran into the bathroom and washed my hair, came back in, got dressed really fast, did my hair and SPRINTED back over to Hecht to make it right on time. 7:00 exactly. CRAZY!

oth of my auditions went REALLY well. I believe I was the only freshman there. there might have been one other but I wasnt sure if she was or not. anyway.....theres more about the second audition....but CHEM is over so I have to go. ill try to update later.

i dont expect to get a part cause im a freshman. but im happy that the faculty knows me know. I had a long discussion with a few of the people auditioning me.

Wednesday Audition

Thu, 24 Aug 2006 15:51:19 GMT

So last night were my first college auditions... after selecting music for 3 days and rehearsing almost nonstop I felt prepared, but expected nothing to come out of it. From what I had heard, freshman are not called back or casted in the shows. these auditions were for the first semester which includes 6 different shows including The World Goes 'Round and A New Brain.

I went into this audition knowing that the only purpose of auditioning was to just get my face out there and let the theatre department know i was there and ready to be an affluent part of their school, but this morning i woke up and went to check the callback lists anyway. i didnt get my hopes up. expecting to see the names of just a couple sophmores, juniors, and plenty of seniors, i was surprised to find that my name was actually there.

i was called back for 4 out of the 6 shows.

The World Goes 'Round, A New Brain, Moose Mating, and A Midsummer Nights Dream.

Tonight i have two callbacks, Friday I have one, and then Saturday morning i have the last one. I need to listen to the music for The World and Brain today in preparation for my callback tonight. In one way I do not want to be in the shows because its going to take up ALL of my time and I will probably just end up being in the music school anway (if i get in), but in another way i really want to do the shows to meet lots of theatre people and to just let everyone know who i am.

i hated not being a part of the theatre community. i didnt feel right the first 4 days i was here. Theatre is naturally just a part of who i am and I dont think i will ever be comfortable with life unless i am always doing it.

now, besides having callbacks for the next 3 days, the only big thing i really have left to do is audition for the music school friday morning. the next week will hopefully be a nice one.

College Confusion

Wed, 23 Aug 2006 17:48:34 GMT

So im finally in Miami.... as a bio major... and i realized.... what the FUCK am i doing???? biology???

IDIOT!

so. after ours and hours and hours....and more hours of meeting with different advisors, taking to my family and high school teachers and meeting with Dr.Alt i nthe Frost school and Williams in the Theatre school, i decided to be a musical theatre major afterall. its gonna take alot of work just to make my way into the program (i am not guaranteed a spot obvously. i have to prov ethat im good enough). Tonight i am singing for williams (he basically runs the theatre department) and then friday im singing for Dr.Alt who will decide whether or not i can be in the music minor program this year and then be abel to transfer into the musical theatre conservatory for next year.

ive been spending every waking moment in the music library finding good songs to sing and making copies of music. After speaking with this Williams guy he referred me to someone who could play the piano for me. So yeserday i called this guy, Zach, and we met in the theatre department and sang through about 5 different songs. he only charged me 5 bucks and helped me cut a a couple songs for my audition tonight. Hes in the BFA program fro musical theatre in the arts and sciences school. its the conservatroy that yo have to audition for theres a really small number of students in it. so anyways, after singing he said that i have a pretty good chanc of getting ino the conservatroy. but thats not what i want to do. i want to be in the music school doign vocal performance. i dont want to take a millon acting calsses. i want to take signing classes for the stage. its gonna be harder to get into the Frost school. especially since telling them that ive never had a voice lesson sounds horrible.

lets just see how these auditions go tonight and friday. im tired as hell. my mono is catchin up with me a little even thugh its basically gone.

people are being way too clingy. ive met alot of people and only really like a couple.

i need to go now and eat and then reorganize my life because i changed my schedule today. dropped and added classes and such.
i gonna start wit ha personal trainer at the wellness center next week. andrew and i are doign a two person session so its not too expensive.

peace out LONG ISLAND!

Thu, 17 Aug 2006 08:34:47 GMT

wow...so... im leaving for college in 3 hours. its crazy how time flies by. i have entries in my livejouranl from 8th grade! and not im out of highschool and into college already. hard to believe. i remember those entires like they were yesterday. and yet so much has happened and so much has changed.

im nervous.

but im also beyond exited.

Mon, 07 Aug 2006 06:22:10 GMT

ok... i found out i had mono july 15th... so why the FUCK is my throat still swollen and why do i keep getting sick with different things??? AH! i only have 9 days until i leave for school and i cant get better. this is making me nervous. i know i prob. just need to put myself on house arrest for a week and never go out or do anything and just get better but at the same time I know I cant do that because theres so little time to spend with my friends before i leave.

besides that though... i must say that i LOVE this summer so much. An incredible number of things have happened, both good and bad, ive become so much closer with so many people, theres never a dull moment, there has been little to no drama, and im loving it. minus being sick course. but being sick interfered with summer only like a small paper cut. it hurt like a bitch for a short while, but never crippled me or anything, and then just lived on as a dull ache.

oy.

id pray to get better if i believed in praying. actually... even though i dont think it does anything to pray... sometimes it just gives me a ltitle piece of mind. i guess the inner child within me still holds onto his religious past when God existed. ah, the old days. everythings seemed to make so much more sense.
now everythings just a goddamn senseless mess of nothing that sometimes stirs a little something in me, but generally seems to make no difference at all.

oddly enough, that made sense to me.

all that matters, isnt it?

Sun, 30 Jul 2006 22:56:09 GMT

I'm gonna miss Grease so much : (

It was one of the best musical theatre experiences ever!

(Miami in less than 3 weeks!)

Wed, 26 Jul 2006 20:56:32 GMT

My parents are awful. Ive never been so dissapointed in them in my entire life.

Basically, we dont get along anymore, and probably never will.

Good thing i'm paying my own tuition and getting my own place next summer because I dont know what I would do if I had to live with them or rely on them anymore.

Fucking close-minded, conservative Roman Catholics.

August 17th just cant come soon enough.

Mono

Wed, 19 Jul 2006 15:06:01 GMT

I really hope i make it to my first sememster at Miami....

Thu, 01 Jun 2006 21:39:53 GMT

So.... life.

Mine has been a complete piece of shit over the past 2 days.

In the past hour it has gotten significantly better.

Everything is changing.

I feel like I'm walking on foreign ground.

I need to go to college.

Now.

I need things to be familiar.

Now.

YPT Aida

Tue, 22 Nov 2005 19:16:35 GMT

Everyone must come to see it Plllleeease. im really excited about it. its should be awesome. my showdates are

NOVEMBER 23 @ 8pm
NOVEMBER 26 @ 4pm
DECEMBER 3 @ 4pm

come come come come come!

Anyway, i rawwked the first quarter in school. Ive never seen such high numbers on a report card. BUT... it doesnt even matter because this quarter im completely slacking. I have lost all of my work ethic and dont want to do anything anymore. So basically, im just going to get a bad average and my GPA will just even out. oh well. Id need a 103 average this quarter to be in the top 20 but i really dont think i can do that again. it seems impossible this quarter. i hate school so much.

Last weekend i went to GW to hang out with nicole. Her roomate sabhia is awesome, jill is a bitch, and i LOVE heyeyeyeyoon. shes amazing.

hookah bars give me headaches. and i think they fuck up your lungs COMPLETELY. im an idiot.

CAN NOT wait for thanksgiving. its my favorite holiday. I love holidays. And I find out which colleges i got into (if any lol) soon. I should find out between Dec.15 and Dec.25 im not gonna lie, im nervous. I dont want my christmas to be ruined.

YPT AIDA

Fri, 18 Nov 2005 04:46:20 GMT

Everyone must come see me in YPT Aida! its gonna be awesome...

My showdates are:

Nov. 23rd, Nov.26th, and Dec.3rd (4p.m.)

Ill update the times for the first two shows soon.
Its at CAP. And, if you call the box office make sure you get YPT tickets and not mainstage. I mean, if you want to see mainstage too thats fine lol.

Nov.23rd - AIDA is Michelle
AMNERIS is Blair

Nov.26th - AIDA is Ashley
AMNERIS is Sam

Dec.3rd - AIDA is Ashley
AMNERIS is Denise

on a side note.... STRESS!!! its narrowing down my lifespan swiftly.